My little sunflower

Just warms my heart to see,

This tiny piece of me

Full of smiles and coos

He has nothing to loose

As he follows me around with his eyes

When out of sight, he calls with cries

For he is my little sunflower,

And I'm his mother

The journey of vulnerability - A timeline

Two eyes met, attraction sparked.
Sexy, confident, secure

Two hearts met intention formed
Invincible together

Two lives merged, married
Embraced and celebrated

Differences arose, got resolved.... or not
Experience grew

A small line on a stick changed colour
Eagerness stirred

The new life coming up became more and more real
Plans began - would they be?

The child was born
The heart burst wide open

The child continued to be
starry dreams stood on stake

Choices swayed in the wind, uncertainties trembled on melting edges
would my baby pay the price of this unthinking ignorance?

and now.....

The secure heart has this gaping hole of vulnerability and glorious fragility marches forward with purpose.

What you see is what you get

What you see is what you get
I live with innocence.

Scary innocence like I never thought possible
Courage to be defenceless in the unknown
And face and meet whatever comes along
Till I want to hide him away to keep him safe

One little guy who smiles, cries, grunts, stares
And what you see is what you get

No camouflage, no subterfuge, no pretences, no protection
Can I bear it?

Can I have the courage to keep looking into this mirror day after day?
Can I rediscover myself to meet that honesty?

My life throws up difficulties of simplicity
My self expands to encompass everything and fails

Yet I keep living each moment to my capacity
There is one to whom I am all he knows as okay

Where I have the power to define an entire world
I try that what he gets is what he sees in me.